Tattooed in a Snowstorm

I don't think I'll forget today in a hurry. No, seriously.
Mainly because of my tattoo but partly, partly because of the snowstorm.



Seriously. It snowed in Wellington. More than I can ever remember.



But yes. Also the tattoo. I'm in love with it.
Síorghrá is Gaelic for eternal love.



Gill does amazing work.



I can't wait until it's healed. He used turquoise for the keyhole and the script but it doesn't really show up here.
It's beautiful though.



It was kind of chilly spending most of the afternoon in a sleeveless top.
In a snowstorm.

365 in 2011

Sunday
On the way home from a lines run for Oleanna.


Monday
Texture in the Parliament car park.
We only have one car key. If Craig is late I have to entertain myself somehow.


Tuesday
Darling husband driving nonchalantly, throwing horns and wearing his grandfather's gold watch.


Wednesday
An exceptionally violent dawn.


Thursday
Craig sent me running to the newspaper - I thought it was something work related.
I was almost relieved to find out it was a terrible photo of me.


Friday
Home when I should have been at the Gryphon. Drunk when I should have been performing.


Saturday
The garden is rising up. It will reclaim Park Place.


&

Cancellation. Disappointment.

I had such grand plans. I was so looking forward to revisiting Carol.
It has been the first role where I was actually proud of myself and my work.
That is hard, truly hard, to admit - caught as I am in the flux between self-hatred and narcissism.

During the performances I was terrified and fighting, I was strong and in control, I came close to tears every single night.
Don't you begin to see? Don't you begin to understand? It's not for you to say

Then, after it was advertised in the newspaper, my seemingly-cursed costar pulled out.
Poor dude missed the first two performances, stuck in Australia, missed rehearsals due to illnesses and dog-attack, and now a family death.

And I? All I can seem to care about is how disappointed I am. Ridiculous. There goes the self-hatred again.